Why did we even have this waste of a month where it's cold and we're so over winter and all the holidays in it weren't worth the time.
Of course there's groundhog's day, which is still stupid, but whatever.
But there was also my birthday. And Valentine's Day.
It's interesting to watch the progression of your life with the 20/20 vision of looking back.
I woke up on my 30th birthday and can only describe how I felt with a word like: exhilarated.
Because I knew, I just knew that my 30's were going to be tenfold better than my 20's had been.
I just turned 35 and the contentment and security I feel in my life are something that I cherish. Because I know what it is to not have that. People joked and asked, how old are you now? 23?
And I would smile and say, I'm not afraid of my age, my 30's have been tenfold better than my 20's. Please don't make me be in my 20's again.
The side effects of being with The Man are more than I had ever realized they would be.
February is kind of fun now.
Even on my birthday this year, when I had an early morning class, a full day of work, and an evening class, I still felt excited that it was my birthday. He and the kids had celebrated with me the Sunday before, with gifts and a surprise of lemon brownies (candles and all) when I walked in the door after church. The Man had read on facebook a random post I had written about "someone should bring me lemon brownies for my birthday," even though I never suspected it to actually happen.
It's okay to celebrate your birthday on Superbowl Sunday, when no one makes you watch the Superbowl. We still made dinner and lots of dips and treats, and then had a family movie night.
(The tripod present? Not a tripod. An iPod dressed up to throw me off. The box? A tripod.)
But even on the day of he sent an edible arrangement to my work, and met me for a late dinner with The Circus after class and told me he had set up a photography lesson for me, with my new fancy camera from Christmas.
The small gestures just fill me up.
And that chocolate covered pineapple? Love.
We never do much to celebrate Valentine's Day, it's a holiday I've always detested. But I think that may be because I've never had anyone who really made me feel like I wanted that day to be special.
Even now Valentine's Day is mostly a family affair for us.
A special candlelight dinner at home. With The Circus.
And I love doing it for them. And for him.
Because they fill me.
I've found the past year or two that I like to think of little things for The Man and The Circus to surprise them with. It's never anything big, because truth be told I still like to keep pressure off of this day, but it's fun to have an excuse to do something little, even cheesy, for them.
We don't have kids today, I leave this afternoon to drive them to their dad so we did our dinner last night.
Cherry 7-up floats with chopped strawberries in them, mini heart pies with strawberry and cream cheese in the middle (here), Navajo tacos (one of The Man's favorites), and lots of candles.
And lots of kids, as we had extras over.
But all the kids helped prepare it, even the friends, and it was cheery and happy and I couldn't think of a better way to celebrate it.
This morning we jumped on the band wagon this hairdo for Cali and Tayler:
And I set out pink tic tacs for the girls, and red tic tacs for Sean to say Happy Valentines just one more time before they headed to school for the day.
Last night, after dinner, I tied a note that said "Break me off a piece of THAT" to a giant Kit Kat (printable here), and put this note (even though it's not actually National Nude Day, I used it anyway) and a print out copy of this ecard
in a pretty little box, along with a rather inappropriate store bought card that had a little vibrating action to it and when it was all sealed up in the box and envelope, I had Cas slip out and put it in The Man's car so he'd find it first thing.
He took the truck this morning.
I seriously suck at surprises.
I expect tonight after taking the girls that The Man and I will sit on the couch with a bowl of ice cream and watch something along the lines of The Big Bang reruns, and that's pretty perfect in my book.
















The girls were bursting with pride. They’d snuck out to Target with Jr. the night before and picked them out for me.
About midmorning the flowers arrived, about bringing me to tears.
I was admiring the general overall look of the flowers when Jr. pointed at the sticks and asked, “What are these?” My focus turned to where she was pointing and when I saw the “mine” painted there I burst out laughing.
“Mine” sticks have been an inside joke with West and me since we first started dating. His friends have a tendency to hit on me, all in good natured fun, and always in front of West, and it became a joke that West needs a stick to hit them away while yelling “mine!” We always mention in teasing that we need to get him a “mine” stick. There they were, sticking out of my flowers. An envelope was also tucked in with the flowers with “Do Not Open” and a set of directions for me to go somewhere at 2:00 written on the outside.
West amazes me! Already this has been the best birthday that I’ve had in at least ten years. Maybe longer. Apparently West had called earlier in the week and gotten permission from my boss for me to leave early. Everyone knew about it but me. At two I headed out and followed the mysterious directions and found myself at Ashley’s house, his ex sister-in-law (weird dynamics here. West is still close to his ex in-laws, excluding his ex of course. And they all claim to be closer to him than their sister. I decided right away that if it didn’t bother them, and it didn’t bother West, who was I to be bothered by it?). Ashley does hair out of a salon in her home, and inside my envelope was a check to her to do my hair. He told her I wasn’t allowed to pick my colors, it was up to her and to have fun with it. I told her I just wanted to get rid of the blond because I’m tired of frying it when I do my hair.
After that I headed home where West (and a handful of well wishing neighbors bearing goodies) showed up, and we had our fajitas and custard. WHAT AN AMAZING BOYFRIEND. Can I just say here, that I can really appreciate that West does these things. It also stands out to me that he’s only recently started doing them, but I see it as he’s worked his way into doing them as he feels them, and isn’t throwing them at me in the beginning to impress me. Top it off with the blog post I found on