Happy 5 year anniversary to my man.
It's seems like it's been a life time together.
I look forward to a lifetime more.
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Lately I've come to enjoy the a.m. crunchwraps at Taco Bell. It's a treat I let myself get every now and then on my way into work.
When I don't ride Trax, that is. And with this 3 degree weather, I'm not riding Trax. I don't have enough dedication to stand at the bus stop in subfreezing temps.
So with this morning being my anniversary, and with it being New Year's Eve, and with the simple fact that I was already a half hour late to work (let's face it, no one else is even going to be there) I stopped in for a crunchwrap.
The thing about doing this is that the employee who is always there in the morning is super awkward. I'm pretty sure she's trying to flirt with me and I am beyond uncomfortable with the advances. Yes, I said "she".
After having it happen yet again this morning, I'm pretty sure I'm just going to have to find a different Taco Bell. I can't take it anymore.
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I've never been one to make New Year's resolutions because I feel like if I want to make a change, then I'm going to do it, I don't care if it's the 1st of January or the 21st of April. But it just so happens that I want to make a change. And it's New Year's. So let's call this a resolution, shall we?
First of all, I want to love my body.
I know that this is going to take some time getting to know my treadmill and my free weights again, but I also know that this a mental struggle and not purely a physical one.
I'm going to figure out meals that I actually enjoy eating, but are clean. No more crap. And this is really hard for me, because I love my crap. *ahem* a.m. crunchwraps and McD's Coke *ahem*
I also have two half marathons on my calendar this summer so I'm going to be training for those as well. I'm thankful for my friends who ask me to run marathons with them.
It holds me accountable for getting myself there.
But I'm also going to make sure that I'm putting my time into filling my mind with positive influences as well. Which means significantly less social media. I've already started following that rule of thumb, but I'm going to continue it in the coming year. I feel I'm easier with myself when I don't have so much pressure to live up to everyone else. Also, I don't tend to compare myself to anyone else when I stay off of social media.
This also means that I'm going to increase my time spent studying my scriptures and the words of the prophets. I tell my Young Women all the time, I never feel so pretty and sure of myself as I do when I'm reading my scriptures consistently. Which I haven't been lately, so I know that it's problem.
This brings me to my second resolution: I'm going to study and read through all four of the standard works in one year. I have my reading schedule set out for the entire year and plan on using study guides as I go.
I'm so excited.
And my third resolution is to get myself back in the habit of using my Flylady schedule. Because it works. And it will relieve a lot of stress and mess if I just take the small amount of time required every day.
I know that these changes are actually big and will require a lot of determination and follow through on my part. I know that changing habits aren't easy, especially when those habits are rooted from laziness.
I'll use my daily posts to keep myself invested in following through. I'm too easy on myself and let myself slide from changes with a shrug of my shoulder and an "oh well." I don't want to be like that right now. I really want to make these changes.
2015 is going to be crazy. Casidee gets her learner's permit for driving this year. Jayme will go to high school in the fall. Cali turns 10 which makes all my kids old enough to not have any single digit ages anymore. This is the year we knock out some debt, and actually take a cruise for Christmas. Hopefully. I haven't made resolutions on those so we'll see how that works out. I can't overhaul every aspect of my life in one year, but then again, why not?
For tonight I will simply celebrate my man and the simple fact that he loves me completely. Which is all that I could have ever hoped for.
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