I wish I were

I wish I were better at mornings.

I have great intentions of getting things done in the wee morning hours.  I could get that run in, and that 15 minute body rock in.  I could study my scriptures and download the pics I need for my blog.  I could do some of my fly lady chores for the day. 

I could eat breakfast.

The sad thing is, I could actually get that all done because it all takes a matter of minutes to do...

I wish I were better at actually doing those dang body rock exercises.  In the words of fly lady, "you can do anything for 15 minutes."  But I never start, so I never finish.

I wish I were better with change.

I get flustered when I have an expectation for the way I'm going to do things and others come and change it all up, and I can't do a thing about it.  I think it's a pride issue.

I wish I were better at making dinner.

This isn't something I can control though.  It's a time restraint.  And I'm trying to think of ways that I can have fabulous food, that doesn't take longer than a half hour to prepare, and that's healthy for us.

I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to nutrition.  Or cooking.

I wish I were better at cleaning.

I have all I need with Fly Lady.  But I'm lazy. 

I wish I were better at not being lazy.  There, I said it.

I wish I were better at remembering birthdays.

So it's okay if you don't remember ours, I don't hold it against you, I swear.  Truth is, I'm probably going to forget yours, so don't sweat it.

I wish I were better at staying in touch.

Staying in touch just feels so much like small talk... and I'm no good at small talk.

I wish I were better at small talk.

Maybe I need to make a list on my phone: "simple questions to use in a pinch, when you feel awkward and your brain has wiped out on you and gone completely blank, so you're not staring at anything and everything except the person you should be talking to..."

I wish I were better at starting things.  If I could just start them, I'd do them.

I wish I were better at believing in myself.

I wish I were better at believing myself  when I try to think that I'm beautiful just the way I am.

Why is that so hard to do?